Friday, July 29, 2011


Visit forthegirlswhodontbelong2.blogspot.com

I thought I had deleted this blog entirly, but realized I had just changed emails.

It's been too long.

I've missed you.


Wednesday, October 13, 2010


I overcame it all.
And I shot right back to where I started.
I have a new blog.
Watch as I continue my spiral.
Hopefully not with the same ending as the last time.
I love you girls.
You're all I have to look foward to every day.
Thanks so much for supporting me no matter how shitty things get.


Saturday, July 3, 2010


131 lbs.

I want you back Ana.

Need you.

Can you hear me?

Wednesday, May 5, 2010


I miss Ana.

I really, truely, and honestly do.

Should I come back to her?

Will she still love me like before?

Be there for me when nobody else will?

She was my everything.


Do I want to risk everything again though?

I need some advice..

How're you girls getting along?


Friday, April 16, 2010


In the last month I decided to try this the "Healthy way".


I havn't worked out once.

But I have not binged in over a month.

I went vegetarian :)

It's so much easier not to binge when you know that you made such a big commitment.


I know nobody here will probably follow my footsteps, but I don't want to be 500 lbs when I get older, so I figure I might as well get my metabolism trained now :).

I have a new boyfriend. He's amazing. We've only been together liiiikeee... 5 days? lol. But nonetheless. Amazing. :)

Daddy got mad at me Tuesday night. I missed school because I threw up. He didn't believe me. I am now the ashamed little girl keeping her eyes on her feet to make sure her hair is in her face and doesn't reveal the bruises underneath. I'm sorry if you don't wana hear it. But I figure, I gota tell someone. Why not the girls who have been with me through the hardest times in my life?


I'll start getting on more often again. Let you know how life's going. And if I ever decide to fall back into my habits, someone please talk me out of it :)

Love you girls.


Friday, March 19, 2010


I quit swimteam.

Got fired from my job.

Totally lost my social life.

Damn it. I'm just downright depressed.

I have absolutely nothing to look foward to in life.

Maybe my outlook will be better when I like my body. eh?

Alright. It's time for yet another dedicated fast. Hmm. 10 days?

Not too long... But long enough to do some real damage.

I ate at pizza hut with my family yesterday.

A small salad and two slices of pizza.

Bleck. But I havn't eaten today.

Tomorrow might be hard.

I'll do my best.

9 more days.



Monday, March 15, 2010


Red Hot Chili Peppers.



I don't think I'm guna eat yet today.

Seeing my hipbones gives me some motivation to just keep starving.

I'm not hungry, so there's no point in giving in to food's temptation today.

I drank a crap load of chocolate milk yesterday.. I deluded it with skim milk.. but still... ew.

Bah. At least it was liquid.


I'm on vacation this week.. So no scale til I get home.

I hope it's a good suprise.

Eat.. Don't Eat...

Prolly no.. but eh.. I duno.


Thank ya girlies fer yer comments...

I feel loved :)

N to Ella!

I just push through practices..

I'll sometimes eat a carrot like an hour before or a glass of milk just to ensure that I don't pass out.. lol.. But unfortunately yes.. I do go unconsious.. well.. a lot. But I've learned to deal with it.. It's just a part of this lil cycle.


Well.. I should be back on tomorrow.

Best a luck to ya pretties.