...TooDamnLong...

Hello girlies.

It's been a while.

I know.

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I've been eating normal (Under 2000 Cals) for the past week or so.

I was trying to decide if doing this to myself was worth it.

The verdict?

Yes.

7 days of 2000 cals n i've gained almost 10 lbs.

I guess this little experiment put me back to square one...

Again.

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Me n N broke up.

So no more wasting every free moment not exercising.

I'm back to this now.

Today after school I'm going home and working out for an hour before I go to work.

I don't know why I feel so motivated.

I don't know why I don't continue eating "normal".

Maybe it's because my body repulses me now.

Maybe because I miss seeing my hip bones.

My ribs.

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I'm updating my ABC to make it a little more... doable?

Because by the 2nd week every time I start,

I have at least one binge day.

I'm ready to accomplish this.

I know I can...

And I will.

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5 days a week...

I'm exercising.

Every week...

I have to have a 4-day-fast.

On days that I do eat...

I'll eat a yogurt, an apple, and a celery stick.

And nothing else.

If I feel like a binge, or eating ANYTHING besides what i've posted...

I'll chug 8 oz of water.

If that doesn't work...

I'll chew.

If THAT doesn't work...

I'll either work out, take a bath, clean, or just do them all to keep me preoccupied.

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So those are my rules for now.

I may update them at some point...

but that should get me started.

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What do you all do when you feel like binging?

I'm in need of some ideas.

Is anyone currently fasting?

Comment me :)

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Thank you all for your *wonderful* support.

I love you all :)

.ThinkThin.StayStrong.

-Camille