Soooo.. I decided to try the 500cal diet. I can eat less, but no more than that every day. Yesterday went well :).
1/2 pb&j uncrustable - 160
Small bag of trail mix (minus m&ms) - 140
4 small apple slices - 40ish..?
1/8 cup raisins - 60
1/3 oatmeal bar - 100
Total: 500 exactly :).
I've been extremely crampy n bloated. Yay for being a girl. :p. Soooo.. I havn't had much motivation to get off my ass n go exercise. But! I am today! I'm not going to let another chance of losing calories slip through my fingers again. :)
I havn't weighed myself innnn... lets see... 4 days? Sounds about right. And then was right after a huge binge. I weighed 130. :/. But on the plus side! I know I don't weigh that much today :). I'll check right after school. Maybe that'll be some good motivation. It seems that's all I really need. Someone or something to tell me that what I'm doing is working. That it won't be for nothing. Cause I'm tired of hearing the other way around. :/.
I got to sleep last night around 2:30. Had to wake up at 6. Bleh. Definately guna need a nap after school today. My head is throbbing and the ibuprofen didn't help my headache or the cramps. Ughhhhh. I just wana curl up in a ball and cry myself to sleep. lol. :p.
I don't know what my problem with sleeping is anymore. I just can't seem to clear my head. I just lay awake in the dark trying so hard to sleep, but all that does is stress me out until I break into tears. Then I get a headache. Then it's even HARDER to get to sleep. Ugh.
I cried a lot yesterday.
My uncle commit suicide last month. And my mom found the CD him and his band made. He's the lead singer. Gorgeous voice. I haven't heard it since they played his CD at his funeral. Hurt then too. All I can see is him on stage singing his heart out. He was such an amazing person. Always happy. Always had a joke. He knew how to keep people laughing. I miss him a lot. It's not fair..
Sorry. Sob story. Haha.
I'll get on tomorrow morning and post how today went.. or maybe I'll be back on tonight..
I don't know about you guys... but I'm craving some change.