Monday, November 23, 2009

I am currently 128lbs. I wish it was less, yes. but! With all that I ate yesterday I figured I'd weigh around 132. So. I'm not too horrifically dissapointed I suppose.

I'm fasting today and tomorrow. I'm trying to lose as much as I can before thanksgiving. I'm going to meet my boyfriends family 2 1/2 hours away. I'm super excited, but I tend to get homesick really easily. So. We'll see how it goes.

I bought a whole bunch of low-cal/sugar-free/fat-free food. *ByTheWay!* I friggin love lemon flavored low cal jell-o. It makes my heart smile. :)

Is anyone else having troubles getting themselves up for exercise? I can't even remember the last time I did. I think it might've been a week ago.. ish? :S Ugh. Well. I don't work today. And we're leaving for Coldwater tomorrow. So, I need to get myself up and going today.

My plan for thanksgiving: I can't just NOT eat. His family is going to be working really hard to cook an amazing meal. So. I'll take a little bit of everything. I won't go back for seconds. I'll drink water. And I'll purge. I hate the thought of doing that in someone else's house, but there's no way I can keep that much food in my body. And if I can't purge, then I'll just not eat that much. I'll try to make it look like I did or something. I duno. Any suggestions?

I've gone from 140 to 128 since I started this. So apparently I'm doing something right. But. I see no difference. And it's horrifically discouraging to go through all this and feel no different. Bleh.

Well. I'm off to finish homework.

Good luck to everyone. Thanks so much for the support :']



  1. Losing that much weight is awesome! You are
    definitely my motivation right now!

    I don't have any suggestions for the eating
    at Thanksgiving part.. I'm still trying to
    figure that out myself =S
    But actually, I've heard a lot of people say
    they are just going to eat a bit a day before
    thanksgiving to curb the appetite so they
    don't binge *shrugs*.. I don't know.

    Good luck! *hug*

  2. For holidays such as Thanksgiving, I usually just suck it up and eat like a normal person. Well, more brussel sprouts than anything, but I fill my plate and then finish it. My reasoning is that even though I feel like I shouldn't have to sacrifice my comfort and happiness for others', it is a lot less worse than getting caught/found out/questioned about it. A short term sacrifice for a long term gain, if you will. If no one gets suspicious, I won't have to eat more in the following days to alleviate it. Yes, it sucks in the moment having to eat that food, but you can restrict like crazy after because no one will think there's something wrong with you and watch you like a hawk.